The Left brainer.
The Right brainer.
The No brainer.
A magical spring welling up.
The ticking tides following the moon.
A rolling thunder washing over the rocks.
We gaze at runes and architecture.
What passes in the clouds
of right and wrong
and wrong and wrong is
(Photography by: https://afrenchtoolbox.wordpress.com)
for you are
only a thorn
under the nail.
A version of
the driving rain.
that only belongs
to those who seek.
Our valley of tears
placid lakes of
the melting snow,
no longer ice.
A new pathway
starts when the sun rises
and the dark
needing each other.
Where the demons cry,
and the saints laugh.
The balance resumes.
under our golden cage
of white light.
A quiet September is falling upon wine country. Cool mornings, hot afternoons, and the smell of change is all around us. I don’t think there is enough coffee in the world that can be paired with the dessert-type silence autumn brings. If I could bottle the essence of fall and wear it around my neck, I would…and then I would pass it to you. There are many apples to be picked and many vineyards to be harvested in Sonoma County. What a welcoming place to visit!
This brings me to think about the exact moment when you know the seasonal change has happened. Not the before effects of the change and not the after effects of the change, but the actual pinpointed turning-tide that encapsulates all of Mother Nature’s energy into one speeding bullet…ready, aim, fire.
A new season!!!! Did you miss it? (Well, there is always winter…brrrrrrr.)
The seasonal phenomenon happens four times a year and if we are too busy with life, heartache, complaints, and stress…we will miss it. No, no, no…the seasonal changes make us readjust our entire style of living, eating, daily activity, and love. That’s pretty impactful…no?
I propose this fall season check in and try to put your finger on the pulse of change. Whether it be the seasons, work, love, or learning…challenge yourself to experience that one single pop of energy that will change your tomorrow.
Love to Sundays and to You,
I once read: If it is important enough to want…it is important enough to wait for.
How do we train for the next wants in life? The next child, the next degree, the next lover, the next competition, or the next occupation?
All these new phases of life bring us to the continual question of …How can I possibly wait for THAT?
So let’s think here…together. (Yes, this might require a pot of coffee and a warm blanket)
What is it you are waiting for? Is it life changing or a drop in the bucket?
Sometimes the most trivial things in life feel bigger than the grandest issues at stake and so it’s important to refer back on our most beloved interrogatives:
Who?, What?, When?, Why?, Where?.
These continual question marks in life will guide us in our decisions to wait for that something special…or not.
It’s not impossible…even when it feels like it is.
Either it will rescue you – or – make you realize you never really wanted it in the first place.
Today is 18 August 2015.
I smile as I sit in the cool California morning air and watch the geese flying in their V formations. The ritual of migration is happening. I wonder why, when we are having the hottest days here, the geese are already migrating for the winter.
Is it because they know how long the journey toward their destination will take, so they’re starting early? Maybe there is a switch programmed somewhere within their DNA that gets flipped and they just instinctually move. I’m sure the scientists have all the answers, but no one questions the idea that the geese move, it’s just accepted as biology and it’s beautifully organized.
This got me thinking about how people move into new phases of life.
We plan and calculate, gathering our energies for the next big step in life, but for us, we may not know why we do what we do.
We just move.
It’s like being on an invisible conveyor belt that pulls us here and there. Our decisions are not accepted as biology. We get questioned to death on the how, what, when, where, why, who, and the hypothetical – what if. These are the messy interrogatives that we try to justify and if we can’t explain it in some type of communication: writing, speaking, hieroglyphics, smoke signals, or morse code we are called lofty, crazy, flighty, a dreamer, or worse…unhappy or ungrateful for what we already have.
Nevertheless, we follow our intuition and doors either open or close as we peruse through the serious, yet whimsical areas of gray.
Why we do what we do without knowing all the answers…why the geese migrate south when it’s still warm… may simply be an earthly progression of cycles: the cycles of life, love, and the pursuit of happiness.
An evolution of the spirit and the one life we have been given. An evolution that even Darwin could support.
(The Original…Fear the Beard…San Francisco you know what I’m talking about!)
This week the idea of men and women has been on my mind.
There are some disturbing realizations that I just don’t seem to understand. Maybe it’s cultural, maybe it’s competition, maybe it’s…unevolved. Help me Obi-Wan…I don’t get it!
Why do women huddle together like hens in the corner and men on the other side forming their bro-communities? Where did the balance go? Are we really all that different? OK yes we are…but that being said…is that a bad thing…no, it isn’t.
There is an idea floating out in the universe that men and women who operate in separate pools of life become stronger as humans beings. We ask for the other sex to be more like us, but doesn’t this seem a bit whacky? (again…Obi-Wan…911!)
Are we that insecure in our feminism and masculinity that we ask men to be more like women and women to be more like men…and if they don’t…then screw ’em! Our solution is: we will band together in our same-sex groups and complain!
Asking someone to change is a slippery slope to resentment. When people are forced to change it’s an attack on who there are…and besides…isn’t it refreshing to see the differences rather than cloning a new hybrid of man or woman?
Leave the clones to Boba Fett and…ummmm…May the force be with you!
I recently went to a restaurant to have a quiet lunch by myself and I sat down beside two women. Ohhh my! What a shock to hear how the men in their lives were impacting them in such negative ways. I was tempted to pop my head into their conversation and ask, “Are men really all that terrible?” but alas I didn’t and I think I immediately suffered from indigestion by stifling my comments. This is just one scenario though. Men…I hear it from you too…the nagging, the honey-do list, the making me watch a chic-flick dread! Are women really all that bad?
Maybe it’s just our perspectives that need a tune-up. No one is an object, no one should be cloned, and male/female differences set balance and order into the universe like they do with art.
Let the dance start between the sexes so that balance can be restored! Ohhh and how much more fun that would be!
Don’t you think? ~mb
Early mornings in Sonoma County are lovely; a cool, peaceful time as the sun slowly warms up the sky. You can easily make friends with Mother Nature…and then there are the vineyards. Somewhere beyond your own backyard there is the knowledge that at this exact moment trillions of little green and purple grapes are growing; taking shape to produce something many of us enjoy over dinner.
Each morning, I fill my little copper birdbath to give respite to my many backyard birds. This ritualistic journey requires me to wade into the glistening green grass, still wet with the morning’s dew.
I walk it barefoot.
It’s the stuff poetry is made of. Exhilarating! Good morning.
After a weeks worth of commitments and obligations, isn’t it nice to know that on Saturday you can be the king or queen of your own castle?
If you want to continue your workweek…well then you will, but there comes a time where you must say to yourself…not today!
I will listen to my albums. I will spend hours on the phone with my family. I will sit and watch the marine layer in the sky lift into deep blues and search for images in the clouds. I will bake that Coconut Crème pie. I will lie on the floor and play with my baby without make-up on and in my pajamas, regardless of the stack of dishes on the counter.
I won’t do laundry. I won’t mow the lawn. I won’t sacrifice the one day of my week to obligations. Today I will do as I please.
It’s your Saturday Constitutional Right…and to the republic, for which it stands, one nation, under Saturday, indivisible, with liberty and justice for all.
Enjoy your day!
The rush off the palms of your hands,
moving and falling over
A story to be told.
Tracing the veins
over your translucent skin.
in a tale buried deep
within the epidermis of
way to change.
Welcome one-and-all to the greatest ticket known to mankind…the ticket to becoming you.
As your ears perk up and your neurons fire at the belief we are all lifelong learners, what will you decide to do with your ticket?
Will you devote your time to:
Cooking? – If so I’m putting on my jacket now and heading over for dinner!
Maybe you’ll learn a new language? – Konichiwa!
Better yet, maybe you will learn how to do your own taxes? Now that is brave and so I pat you on the back and hand you a box of tissue, a glass of wine, and encourage you to book a spa treatment afterward.
When you find out what it is that makes your brain go…Ahhhhhh, you simply can’t sit there and do nothing.
Action has to be taken. You’ve journeyed the long road of, What the hell am I going to do with my life?, and when you discovered it you became obligated to yourself and your efforts to step over the line drawn in the sand. Time to move forward.
If it is too scary, well then it might be the wrong path, but if it is easy, doors opening, people smiling, and health restored…my friend you are on the right road. It’s musical.
It does sound a bit like magical b.s., but I assure you there are wise men and women (maybe not as obvious as those carrying frankincense, gold, or myrrh) with stories of change to share.
They were once complacent in their lives, but with hard work and support they were able to write their own song, edit the score, and gather energy to cash in their ticket and board the train.
She sang to the clouds,
filling water and light
in her dark eyes.
A second to glance,
A moment to blush,
An hour to sigh,
A day to bed.
Reserved and cool.
The forest through the trees,
asking for a map
to guide the way.
The grand tunnel
of shimmering jewels.
A cavern unlocked.
Waxing and waning moon.
The clouds building.
The light swirling decisions
brought into view.
Building chic story.
A vision of
uncharted on a map.
An elegant adjective.
Reading your letters
from a depression area.
The lack of,
the memories of,
the reality of.
The articles read,
the End has come.
The sea of success
washed away in moments
as the hand once held high
now swings quietly
with blackened fingernails.
A kiss that came
in the gritty dustbowl
placed upon your lips.
A lengthy puzzle,
tied up in ribbon.
broken into pieces.
through measured ticks.
A day in a year,
a year in a day.
on a sunny day.
over soft thunder.
on a soft body.
Worlds within boundaries,
nourishing and protecting,
setting the metronome
of dissonance in time.
Today rain fell in Sonoma County. The welcomed weather must have invigorated nature’s sense of humor because I ended up in playful game of peek-a-boo with the little backyard hummingbird.
As I am no photographer extraordinaire and as I have vowed to capture a hummingbird picture for a friend, the quest has so far been unsuccessful. The zippiness of these little guys is a marvel to the human eye and a frustration to my iPhone camera who is sadly shaking his head saying, “No, no, no, we didn’t even come close.” (My iPhone may even be suffering from low self-esteem at this point in the journey).
Funny enough, one particular little hummingbird this morning seemed just as curious about me as I have been with him and his zig-zagging, motley crew. Numerous times he flew up to me to watch me as I slowly reached for my camera, but each time I got ready to video…bzzzzz…..off he went!
Drat!!! Even now as I type, he is keeping a quick eye on me from a hidden perch. His incessant snapping gives away his location.
I realized I was playing a game with him when he started flying low to the ground and hiding himself behind a bamboo shade located on my deck. Yes, he was as sly as a cat but sadly, as loud as a Vespa with his wings fluttering one million miles per hour. I watched his silhouette from behind the shade as he slowly zzzzz’d forward to peek around the corner at me. Quick! He put his wings in reverse and backed-up his little flying golf-ball body. Beeep, beeep, beeep!
How funny he looked and how persistent he was in spying on me! I think today I made a new friend…even if he is being such a little shit!
PS…Success! Got him! Got Him (click for video)
Cat and mouse
Hide and seek
Black and white
Jekyll and Hyde
Ex-boyfriend and Ex-girlfriend
Saturday and Sunday
Sins and blasphemy
Lipstick and kiss
Thighs and Ankles
Leftovers and an old flames
Thunder and lightning
Reincarnate and Return
and shows his flare of sophistication,
his temperament of shyness,
and a splash of daring on the
rooftops of suburbia.
Small but mighty
he owns the skies with
fearless dashing song
making himself known to
all who wait for his presence.
With him comes the sun
warming cool summer skies.
He is a the violin in the orchestra
of gentle currents.
He is the revolution.
its eyes scanning the terrain,
deep blue skies eavesdropping
on the whispers falling over the vast domain.
protecting its own with falling rain,
preserving and protecting the landscape
for an abundance of
a combination of melody and harmony
increased by the circulation of
wind and water,
fire and light.
The jungle and its mysteries
secure life in small places,
holding true the secret of
In life there are numerous modes of joy.
The rise of a smiling voice, the sound of a canary singing his song, or the color of an orange can sometimes make us happier than diamonds, fame, or fast cars.
Why is this?
How is it that these simplicities pack such a powerful punch? Maybe the key is found in the lack of effort required to obtain these things.
Let me explain: Humans work hard for the hot rod, the bling, and the notoriety; therefore the machine is striving (a derivative of strife) for those items attributed to success and fame, but ohhhhh the work involved.
Ratio Measurement of the bling
Strife Output – 100
Happiness Input – 100
Ahhh, but the orange sitting there in your fruit basket all shiny and radiating, hiding its sweetness has not given you an ulcer, sleepless nights, or a drinking problem.
Ratio Measurement – the orange
Strife Output – 10 (grocery store battle!)
Happiness Input – 100
Kind of cool…Right?
OK!!! That’s enough mathematics. It should also be noted that he orange has such a lovely color like the sun, the sound of a baby’s laugh, or a cat sleeping in the shadows. Beautiful!
P.S. Support your local farmers! They may have a little higher strife output than us consumers! Thank you Mr./Mrs. Citrus Growing People of the World. :)
The bookshelves are filled with a wealth of information for those seekers of…ummm….information.
For some, this statement maybe the perpetual alarm clock going off in our heads. It’s fine to go ahead and hit snooze for a few years, but that alarm will keep chiming in its obnoxious way to get us to snap to and admit to ourselves we want some answers.
Then there isn’t much you can do, so grab a Red Bull, dig into the muck, and start organizing and flinging your thoughts into color-coded files and organize them with tabs. Not the type A personality?…that’s O.K.! Grab a beer while lazily organizing and lob your thoughts into boxes (you know the ones that say Kirkland?). Not the type B personality?…no problem.! Lay in bed and think about yourself organizing and flinging your thoughts under the bed. Not any of the above?…well, errrrrr…seek counseling.
My point is this: It’s merely our human nature that wants to know why. When these dawnings hit us is irrelevant, but you can’t ignore them forever. There is some kind of intrinsic bliss in the unknown happening around the corner. We can only hit snooze for so long and then the questions are still waiting to be answered. Questions like: What is the point? Why did I do that? When did this matter? How will I live the next 20 years of my life?
Self-understanding is not something to be taken lightly because if you are the self…then you are the one entitled to ask these questions. It’s your life after all.
There will be a torrent of excuses…typical. There will also be a downpour of taking it personal…also very typical. Lastly, there will be a stream of babbling nothingness. It’s part of the process. (Best to keep these babbling sessions with the drunk aunt or uncle in the family because they know all about aimless rambling.) :-)
Where is the best place to start with it all? Anywhere.
As long as you feel like you are getting a tad closer to answering these pestering questions is better than nowhere.